madam mope and her doctor, her love, her god fat..
[心情随笔] 日期:2005-09-25 Sunday 浏览:1374 次
He make me feel so safe just like a solid mountain behind me in peace.他能与我沟通，他懂得倾听，知道什么时候该说话,他懂得如何表达自己。
my speech in the Sunday class of grace church nearby
Subject: madam mope Mar. 16
I became a full time housewife __ a dependant a few years since when I was gone abroad . There are some moments I feel happy, happy in my way. It's be under the necessity for me to Keep myself at a distance and to be dispensed from joining any group. Habitually I slip in my own inside world in the day time frequently.
But I regret to remember I never was a greable, sociable, attractive schoolgirl at my teenage age, especially in my family. My mama always wishes I could acquire a sort of lighter, more sprightly, pleasant manner. But she is never satisfied to see my progress in the earnest by her own observation. Later she cannot be aware why I was not contented about my accountant carrear with not bad pay. As one of the 1st generation independent professional women since new China, for the time, with diffidence she is not accustomed to my life style of eating meals and wearing clothes only at my hubby's expense.
After listening my talk, you said to me:
I hope you always think positively. Many people go to work not because they have to make money but because they can not stay at home and do something enjoyable. You can stay at home and doing things you dream to do such as writting articles. You can only work as my house wife if you want for certain hours each day and you spend majority of your time do what you enjoy to do.
Why lose your joy ?The cause?
You asked with caution.
I always find many people who do not understand my shape criticize me and try to get me to conform to what they think me should be doing,
but their opinions are usually arbitrary , blind, shallow, and represent a big bias, prejudice. Their voices around us are noisy and not truth.
TEMPTATION 1. Others Compare you with others and all this comparing, grading and competing make you hurry
You must still to be considerate and look your best, keep your heart calm, agreeable, speak in a well-modulated voice.
2. CONFORMing your track, footprint to the Expectations of others make you indecision. Please you mom, middle-class mainstream society value, Chinese traditional woman life style.
Both are deadly traps that distract you, your life voyage from action in the right direction God and yourself intended ,enjoyed.
Here, I give you a Paul's sample:
While have to deal with critics who misunderstand and malign your individual life choice and manner
your response should be as the same as Paul did and forever.
Ignore them. ____ "Be sure to do what I should", to listen and remember what you should hear.
We will not try to change anyone's mind, but improve yourself.
So, now JUST FOCUS ON FINISHING YOURSELVE'S RACE
your boundaries , specialty, major of life, the particular race lane to run in that has set before you
but to focus only on the particular area, field, sphere, project, program, ministry ,aim, purpose, dream, design, subject, research...
which has been planned to assign to you AND you've been shaped for.
Then he asked me followed him to say aloud for 3 times:
I will save myself from two enemies------------hurry and indecision resulted by anyone else's estimate or even earthly society expectation.
I will keep to my own program. I might not follow it exactly, but I will have it just like before. I will believe in myself.
And asked me recite aloud it once again in every morning and in the night in my bed.
He gave me a audio tape. He put his voice on it. So I put his voice into my pocket with me. Then wherever I am, he will be always together with me, talk with me , take care of me, help me and love me.