You lay me down in your soft couch in front of you. I am depressed, helpless and passive. I answered. I am just your inescapable dog girl.Your voice not merely be the record of our love and dream, it is one of the props, the pillars to help me endure and prevail wholly.How can we make love immortal and not to lose anything and memory of value ?
MY DOCTOR, MY LOVER
I pursuit love and pity and pride and honor, a spirit and a soul capable of compassion, endurance and sacrifice too just like you do, I believe about all these things. I believe leaving no room in our brain for anything but the old verities and truths of the heart, the universal truths lacking which any story is ephemeral .I learn these kinds of things.
But yet always I feel that life without hope as though standing among and watched the end of mankind. Worst of all, even without pity or compassion. Griefs , leaving no trail and marks. I don't wanna merely endure. Not only lust but love, not only the glands,but also the soul .But it is so difficult, how can I reach there? What is the purpose and significance of this life's origin? Tell me, tell. How can the young women or men face the human heart in conflict with itself? I asked myself, asked you again and again and again.
You let me describe my feeling , my sense when I come to my disease. You lay me down in your soft couch in front of you. I am depressed, helpless and passive. I answered.
Your laboratory experiments with animals have uncovered a phenomenon designated "learned helplessness" .Dogs given inescapable shock initially show intense emotionality, but late become passive in the same situation. When the situation is changed from inescapable to escapable shock, the dogs fail to escape even though escape is possible. I am just your inescapable dog girl.
Hopelessness is the key. You said. There are always helpful things in somewhere sometimes. Hope will always overcome helplessness. We should always keep positive thinking and knows situation always change as time goes by. There is always possibility for impossible thing to happen unexpectedly. We need think new and act new when the chance comes. It is always beautiful if it is enjoyable with positive thinking. Believe me, ok? my little girl. You must call me anytime if you feel bad. Promise me.
You said , wharever if we can create out of the materials of the human spirit and feeling something which did not exist before. it itself is worth experience about, worth the anguish and the excitement. I think together we can bring happiness to every one involved because we will treat others nicely if we are happy. In the end, it is a win win situation if we do every thing reasonable.
You said you are a gentle man here but looks like a police in the other times. you would like to find a way to make me more productive.
you don't wanna me empty at sea，decadence，make myself rotten.
It is your privilege to help me endure by lifting heart, by reminding me of the courage and hope and pride and honor which have been the glory of our past. Your voice not merely be the record of our love and dream, it is one of the props, the pillars to help me endure and prevail wholly.
You said that is right your duty to me, my dear darling .I sincerely hope your life is getting better and better, work hard and enjoy our young and pretty life deeper. Anyway, I wish you live a nice everyday, a nice every month, a nice every year and a happy, full and peace life. I want you become to be yourself. Your love will give me energy to carry out my plan. We should thanks for everything.
Will we prevail? How can we make love immortal and not to lose anything and memory of value ?